I had an energy session with an energy healer.  One where I identified a certain energy that has been living in my solar plexus for quite some time.  A blue blob.  As a part of identifying the blob, I had to visualize moving it out of my being and into a room.  A large glass box of a room with the blob in the center, and me outside of the room, so that I felt safe to explore what it was.  I put the blob inside that room to observe it and it quickly grew.  It grew to fill up the entire room, pressing itself into every corner... trying to get at me. 

It was very clear to me, this blob was trying to get out of that box and get at me.

It took a while for me to work up the courage, but eventually I put my hand on the door knob of that room, took a deep breath and opened the door, finally ready to face what I'd been carrying in my soul for so long.

And do you know, as soon as that door opened, and I braced myself for the unknown of what was about to happen, two blobby arms reached out of that blob, immediately scooped me up and embraced me.  Gave me the most loving hug and wouldn't let go.  Just hugged me.

I was so confused.  It was almost cartoonish.  It was fucking adorable.  And that was the energy of that blob.  Pure adoration.  Pure Love. 

That blob has been trying to love me for a very long time.

Sometimes healing is ugly.  It's painful and scary and involves a lot of courage.

And sometimes, all you really need is a hug.